May 15th, 1862

I have received bad news earlier today. The confederate army won the Battle of McDowell. To my acknowledge, from the Union 34 were killed, 220 are wounded and 5 are missing. From the Confederacy, 116 were killed, 300 are wounded, 4 are missing. On the bright side, only 34 compared to 116 were killed. Although, many are wounded and few are missing, 34 lives compared to 116 lives is not that man. Although, if you think about it, 34 lives that could be nearly 7 families, all lost on the battle field.

Lincoln must already be sending in more soldiers to fight, since we lost. I pray that Samuel nor Henry got injured, are missing or the worst, killed. I also, pray for all the families that have injured, missing or even killed soldiers. They are probably in devastation and lamentable, I know I would be. I would not be able to live a single day if I knew my husband passed away. The pain would live on with me my whole life knowing, I would never see my husband again. As well for Emma, she would have to grow up and live her life without her daddy, no man to lead her through her life. It is one of the most contemplative and veritable thoughts that have been running through my mind.