December 29th, 1861

Christmas, 3 days ago was very calming. It was lonely but peaceful. The feeling of the warm fire and glowing streets, christmas carolers around town, aroma of fresh meat and delicious foods. It was all perfect, but one thing was missing, family... Samuel. I never really had a true family as I was growing up. Holidays was just Samuel, Emma and I. My mother and father passed away as I was a child. I grew up with my grandmother, whom passed away when I was nearly taking care of her. As for Samuel, him and his family haven't talked in many years.

This Christmas, Clarissa and her children came over for dinner. Clarissa brought over a portion of the food we feasted on. It was all wonderful food. Even though Clarissa and her children kept company, the house still felt empty without Samuel. It was wonderful being with their family though. They are wonderful people and Clarissa feels just as overwhelmed with everything, as me. Clarissa and I are very supportive to one another about our struggles that we've gone through. I am glad I have someone there for me that I can always count on, Clarissa.

Happy Birthday Jesus Christ <3