April 24th, 1862

As I predicted, Henry got drafted back into the war. He is still weak and sore in his shoulder but the Generals say he could be to some assistance. I did not get to say my last words to him before who knows when, but I pray that he feels better and has strength to be placed back into to war. Although, Samuel will be thrilled to see him. I hope Samuel is doing alright, I haven't heard from him in a few weeks. Emma has been asking me about Henry until I told her I would not be seeing him any more, since he is going back to war. Emma then, asked about her father. She questioned about how if Samuel got hurt then, he may get sent to the Commission. I told Emma not to cross her fingers for that. I explained how it's much better if Samuel is somewhere else, healthy and unharmed than home and critically injured. I would not put my selfish desires under my husbands health. I just wish the war would be over or at least send the present soldiers home and send in new ones. I've been worrying about Samuel a lot. It kills me to walk around the Commission aiding soldiers, troops and generals from the war. It hurts aiding soldiers who could once, be my own husband. When I don't hear from Samuel in a long amount of time it gives me the feeling something bad has really happened to him. I do not have a single clue how Emma and I would stand in life, nor go on if anything happened to Samuel.